Human .. Always Being use w/o Noticing.. Frail .. Weak..

2009-05-01T13:36:00.002+08:00

a few thoughts that went through me when i went to my grandma place yesterday for dinner.

1. While looking at my grandpa having his daily dosage of medicine, it got me wondering is it because of this medicine that is sustaining him up to this age or his strong vitality, because hardly do I see an elderly at an age of 75 able to walk without having to complain of any pain or aches. And without this medicine, how long would he actually have lived? =\ Saddening.

2. While talking to my grandma I realised how much I deviated from my 'motto'. Stay happy everyday. She told me, there's no point in brooding over everything, at your age, and my age, what we need to do is to enjoy everyday, a day is still a day, it will still pass in the end, brooding over it is the same as crying over spilt milk.

3. What is yours, stays yours. Harder to be said than done.

'Nuff said.

2009-04-26T15:26:00.002+08:00

ask me what do i feel about emotions.. i would say i'd rather have a heart of ice.. if things were to turn out to be like this, then there isn't really a point for me to continue on this way..

2009-04-17T10:55:00.000+08:00

farts are amazing.. it is super hard to believe that you can keep something so smelly within your body..

2009-04-10T11:56:00.002+08:00

Sorry folks, for the inactivity of this blog. For a period of time I actually cannot remember what my password to this blog is, then sudden realization hit me this morning, and ta-da, I'm here.

Well, this period of time AFTER exams, I am going through my attachment, or known as internship as its only 7weeks, AND AFTER THIS WEEK,ITS MY FINAL WEEK, WOOOOOO!~
This internship is really a turn-off, I literally spend 3 weeks doing nothing, slacking in front of the com, trying to haul anyone up for a chat or went online on Facebook to play some games. Boredom is hell for me................. NVM its, 5days/45hours/2700mins/16200seconds to go through... Aww doesn't seem long.. One thing I would miss about this company is the colleagues over there. They are a great bunch over there. Our age gap isn't very far, and there's this colleague that's only a year older than us, so, we are quite able to click together during lunches or breaks. Even then, if they DO give me the opportunity to return to the company to work, I would definitely _______. *hints*

Anyway, I have been on driving lessons for quite awhile, and to think that in another 2 or perhaps 3 more months I would have my license and I'm quite excited to be able to drive a car on my own! hahahahahaha..

Would be busy this weekend, so if I have time I would blog more often. Peace out! ((:

A little something that I heard over the radio.

Monsoon - Tokio Hotel

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to've come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

A halfmoon fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name,I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey!
Hey!

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you,
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

2009-02-09T23:33:00.001+08:00

And here comes THE

EXAMS!!!

man, oh man -.-

2009-02-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

Assignments are FINALLY

OVER!!!

2009-01-22T00:33:00.002+08:00

not too long ago, my mum asked me this question while watching the news.

"You know who's the American president now?"

"Of course.. George W. Bush right?"

she gave me those shocked face which seriously made me laughed, classic..

2009-01-17T13:54:00.002+08:00

Yet again another Saturday... stuck at home for the afternoon to do spring cleaning... O.O the amount of dust collected over the past 1 year was whew, i have to use quite alot of cloths to completely clear the dust away..

anyway, chinese new year is around the corner.. but as every year pass by its like the atmosphere for this festive season gets more and more damp... weird, maybe this is wat usually happens when one gets older, realizing stuffs that usually get u all excited as a kid becomes more mundane..ohwell.. all part of growing up eh? =|

2009-01-13T23:29:00.005+08:00

okok.. i gotta keep to my promise and blog everyday.. even if its just a single word =p

days in school is getting kind of monotone with all the projects to rush.. its like each week i have one to pass up!
Monday - wake up, go to school, do proj, go home, do some more project, sleep
Tuesday - wake up, go to school, do proj, go home, do some more project, sleep
Wednesday - wake up, go to school, do proj, go home, do some more project, sleep
Thursday - wake up, go to school, do proj, go home, do some more project, sleep
Friday - wake up, go to school, do proj, go home, do some more project, sleep

awww.. i know im a boring guy, but thats basically my crappy week..

cheers..

2008-12-07T08:50:00.001+08:00

will start updating under certain circumstances.. haha, so for now, i wont start yet..

P.S. If my less is more than your more, then is your more more than my more or less than my less?
Ok, i dont think im making any sense anyway..

2008-08-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

The craziest thing I have done for love is..

To wait 8 hours doing nothing for my girlfriend to get off work (:

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008.

Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

2008-06-12T02:20:00.003+08:00

well well.. its been quite long since i last came here. quite busy throughout this whole week. but i have no idea what i am busy with.. hmmmm...

well anyway, lotsa people are going on holidays/overseas trips.. and i feel abit left out.. haha.. i mean literally lotsa people around me.. my parents jus came back from japan a week ago; my uncle from genting; today jingshi and mervyn from guangxi; today sam, jinyong and weisinn from chiangmai; and my dear just went off to church camp today ):

nvm about that.. there is a fop to attend next week and i have exams after the holidays.. hw much better can life get? holidays are turning to be more like school days..

argh...

Random thing of the week: I'm starting to appreciate Jagabees!

2008-05-19T12:37:00.002+08:00

Randon thing of the week: Someone stands at the traffic light and waited for 5minutes for it to turn green. Reason being? Not because the traffic light takes longer time to turn but he never did press the button.

2008-05-11T02:42:00.002+08:00

hmmm... with assignments pouring in and a financial crisis, things arent going that smoothly for now.. not including the manyyyy lectures i failed to listen and the manyyyy headaches i received every morning i wake up, my life isnt gg anywhere but downhill..

have u ever get to a point where no matter how much u sleep, u will never feel rejuvenated.. i've reached to that point.. it make it seemed like everything i do seems pointless.. trust me, it doesnt feel good.. and i seriously wish that i could sleep and wake up ONLY if i feel that all these problems can go away...

about all those phrases about never to give up? like wat 'every cloud has a silver lining' and and 'at the end of the tunnel there will be light'? let's just say my journey inside this tunnel is fruitless.. and i have to dig myself out instead..

Random thing that happened this week:
A guy sitting beside me in the MRT today had smacked his head against the glass panel while sleeping. Not once, not twice but five times repeatedly before he decides to just stay awake before he gets a concussion.

Cheers. And a happy upcoming Vesak Day.

2008-04-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

boring day,
boring week,
boring start of the school term.

the type of feeling that one gets when u have to wake up early in the morning, squeeze in the train with other commuters, tryin your best not to drool on the table while the lecturer is talkin and not understanding a single bit (++ a very dreadful feeling that you wont be able to get good grades/pass for this sem anymore) and then dragging ur feet back home. i tell u, that feeling is worse than going to work...
school life, wadda u expect, at least there are frens and her (:

Cheers.

2008-03-09T19:19:00.002+08:00

it is plain stupidity when u get cheated not by someone but a song...

there was this song named Peace. and guess wat.. it really is.. 4mins of silence -.-

zz..

2008-02-20T01:48:00.001+08:00

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
One look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
Say your right again
Heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
Its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

2008-02-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

i tot i've changed.. but once again.. i've proved myself wrong..

since dunno when, i've been doing things without thinking.. be it my actions or speech there's alwaes a tendency for me to spoil something.. someone's mood, someone's day, someone's event, someone's plan and more to name..

i know apologising might nt help at all, but thats the only thing i can do for now while i try to chnge.

Sorry. Dui Bu Qi. Sumimasen.

2008-02-17T20:27:00.003+08:00

WAITING

FOR

TIME

TO

PASS

sighhh

2008-02-14T01:54:00.001+08:00

Mayday Parade - When I Get Home, You're So Dead

The words are coming I feel terrible
Is it typical for us to end like this
Am I just another scene
From a movie that you've seen 100 times
Cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst
And I've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse
And we could sit around and cry but frankly your not worth it
Anymore

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

On any other day I'd shoot the boy
Cause your simple toy
Had caused a scene like this
Leave him hanging on the walls
Just a picture in the hall
Like 100 more
Consider this as a gift as you taste him on your lips
And he's making you scream with his hands on your hips
I hope he's leaving you empty baby this is just a fix
For such a simple little whore

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

And your name remains the same
All that has changed is this pretty face
So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

2008-02-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

boreeeed.. if holidays were to be like that.. i rather repeat my o's.. *choy* (:

recently.. had a talk with sec sch mates on the topic '2012'
2012 as in the year 2012 and not some hotel room number..

Scientists had sort of interpreted that in this year, Earth will experience several major changes.. Climate, earth plates movement,human evolution etc...
Why is this so?
A planet the size of Jupiter outside of the solar system called Nibiru or also known as Planet X will come into close contact with Earth, thus this changes will appear. Nibiru orbits around the sun in a 3600 years cycle, unlike for Earth which is 365days, and the 3600th year happens to be in the year 2012.
When in contact, the gravitational pull of Nibiru will affect the Earth, causing Earth to stop orbiting for 3 days before going in a 90 degree turn,and in layman terms, the world will be orbiting upside down instead.
And during this contact which is estimated to last for 2 years, major disasters will appear, great tsunamis, earthquakes, hurricanes, and all that you can name. And an estimated of 2/3 of the human population will perish at that time and once again we are plunged into another ice age where we would have to start everything all over again.
There are many sites where they have true evidences from the Sumerians proving this point. And it is up to you to believe it or not. (:

Main point being : Live your life to the fullest! You might not know when is the last day you will be alive.

2008-02-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

Beyond the Fall - A Day in the Death of

And I do anything to,
Reach my hand inside you,
Reaching for the real truth,
Fall apart and grip your heart and squeeze until you tell.

Wars that we repeated,
Left us so defeated,
Marching like a soldier walking through the gates of hell.

Hearts that arent worth mending,
Fights are never ending,
Wounds that we keep tending,
Dropping bombs and raising arms, you've got me on my knees.

About to pull the trigger,
This is so much bigger,
Gun at my head, locked and loaded, do it set me free!

Dont break my heart, I'd do anything.
and I'll take it to my grave.
Dont break my heart.
Will you celebrate,
On a day in the death of me?
Dont break my heart

Sugar its not over,
look over your shoulder,
words are getting colder,
your mistake was my heartbreak, I told you this before.

Nothing left to say here,
everything is so clear,
the hardest punch you threw is you dont love me anymore.

Dont break my heart, I'd do anything.
and I'll take it to my grave.
Dont break my heart.
Will you celebrate,
On a day in the death of me?
Dont break my...
Dont break my heart.

Hallelujah set me free (x2)
La la la la la la la la la
Hallelujah set me free...

Dont break my heart, I'd do anything.
and I'll take you to my grave.
Dont break my heart.
Will you celebrate,
On a day in the death of me?
Dont break my heart
(x2)

One more heartbeat,
Left inside me.
Can you save me from this nightmare?

2008-02-08T13:58:00.000+08:00

a Happy Chinese New Year to whoever reads this post...
it is supposed to be a joyous occasion.. but frankly speaking.. even a normal school day beats the boredom of having to visit a relative's place.. aside from the ang baos and the small talk between cousins.. the rest of the time is left to ROT and i really mean ROT..

a little summary on the first few days of CNY

Day 1:
Collecting of Ang Bao.

Day 2:
Collecting of more Ang Baos.
AND
Posting a post on blogger.

THE END

2008-02-05T08:17:00.000+08:00

Faber Drive - Tongue Tied

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

2008-02-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

Mayday Parade - I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About

and we both go down together
we'd stay there forever
just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
and never let go

well i'm thinking of the worst things
that i could say to you
but a promise doesn't mean a thing anymore
and this never will be right with me
and now you're trying to desperately
but i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

i could only sing you sad songs
and you could sing along
and you could see the melody
that's been calling out your wrongs
and this never will be right with me
and now you're trying to desperately
but i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
but i never told you everything
i'm losing hope and fading dreams
and every single memory along the way

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

and we both go down together
and stay there forever
just try to get up

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

2008-02-03T02:35:00.000+08:00

OK! back to reviving my blog after so looong.. bet no one comes here anymore.. =\

anyway.. went for night cycling other day with sam, jinyong and merv.. cycled from 10pm to 5am.. from east coast to changi village.. seriously.. i suspect we cycled for like 10KM.. O.O.. my butt and leg hurt like hell when i reach home.. slept for 2 hrs before going to sch to pei celeste for her briefing for the CRS peer mentoring thingy..
anyway.. pictures..

2007-11-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

this blog is going to be DEAD
the last post posted was in September.
many things have happened and i am sorta lazy to post it.
haha.. well.. i shall try my best to update on things happening..

for now... bye...

2007-09-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

one thing leads to another..
one opinion leads to another..
one criticism leads to another..
one lie leads to another..

fuck it.. i hate the way life presents itself..

2007-09-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

few days ago went to celebrate Celeste's birthday over at her condo.. haha.. i cant believe i actually gotten lost whilst on my way to her house.. the west side looks quite abit different from the east side.. o well..

there were a number of people already there.. haha.. dint really had the appetite to eat much cos i had quite a feast in the afternoon due to my sis's birthday.. haha..

it was all chatter, eating and playing at there.. haha.. time flies fast when u are really having fun.. not long it was already 11pm.. haha..

made our way back home through different means.. considered bad luck.. me and glo missed the last train home.. then we decided on taxi.. my money was cheated..

o well, a general summary of wat happened a few days ago.. will be back.. i hope.. haha..

and pics taken unknowingly... abit dark.. but who cares =)

2007-07-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

Sry for the incomplete clip.. This here is the video from youtube.. Quality less appealing..

Considered quite an old song.. But nice..

2007-07-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

Carlos Santana ft. Musiq - Nothing At All

2007-07-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

life goes on as normal for me..
with the increasing amount of workload.. one day sure peng..

looking forward to the escape outing on saturday.. haha..
i still sound like a child sia.. getting all excited over sitting roller coasters...
"there's a kid in you & me".

todae wasnt my favourite day.. ended at 6.. and i was told next next wed..my makeup class fer TBCM(technical business and communication management) would be up from 2 to 6...
!!!! wth man.. and wednesday was supposed to be the happiest day of the week cos i end earliest..

man man man...

2007-07-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

BBMAK - Ghost of You & Me
(a super old and nice song)

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

2007-07-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

i'm too lazy to search for blogskins..

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2007-07-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

wasted $50 on a ear plug to find the sound quality to be similar as listening to radio.. OMG...
this means that.. an expensive earpiece does not mean that it's good...
argh...
nvm... Lesson Learnt..

lately.. been feeling really fatigued.. dun really have the energy to do stuffs.. another half-a-week wasted on games.. my ears was oblivious to wadeva the teacher was mumbling up there..

well, im off to rest..
c
u
some other day..

2007-06-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

alwaes noe that it can nvr ever alwaes go my way all the tym nor your way..

Day #:
It's tym to part after waking up in the morning.. surprise, surprise... while i had a mattress to sleep on in the room, the rest of the others were sprawled everywhere almost anywhere.. haha..
when every1 realise we hab to check at 1030, every1 rush to kip and pack up their things to leave.. valuables here valuables there.. hope nothing goes missing!
we went to the counter to check out and waited for the shuttle bus..
went down to white sands to eat breakfast.. realise the breakfast a la carte was over.. no choice but to order other stuffs.. stayed to chit-chat.. lame jokes were passed around.. laughters were heard.. and den it was tym to part...
jenny me norwin kris jy2 went over to xr house to play abit of mahjong..seems like they are getting addicted to it
well, i was not part of the game but i kinda remembered myself flicking in and out on the sofa in the living room.. was really god damn tired..

by the tym i reached home, it was going to 5.. immediately i took a shower and hit the beds.. dint wake up till 9pm.. haha..

i think that will be the end of The Chalet Chronicles..
maybe soon we'll have another one.. haha..
good day!

2007-06-24T01:52:00.000+08:00

Day @:
In a half-trance state i left the chalet wif yuker and norwin.. norwin had remedial while yuker and me wanna go back home to catch a wink and bring smth we forgot.. hah.. reached home at around 10++, bathe, tried to watch tv, gave up and went to take a nap fer 3 hours..

met yuker again at aljunied mrt.. set off once again to the chalet in a light mood.. was quite suprised by the newer addition of weeloon and kris into our chalet.. and guess wat... they are mahjong-ing again (exception of weeloon).. sian...

and onto the part of the bbq.. I AM NOT GONNA EMPHASIZE AGAIN ON HOW MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE WAS CUT DOWN JUS BY STANDING NEXT TO THE BBQ PIT. arigatou. haha.. the food was delicious... but much more with the company of many more frens...

we waited by the pit fer ms tay and mr gui's arrival too.. they arrived at around 10++ and i was amazed by how much ms tay had changed.. from the once ski, no, slender figure to the 'bulging' one due to an oncoming baby girl.. CONGRATULATIONS!!

haha.. it was all chat and photos nxt.. fer those photos pls refer to jenny or yuker's blog.. haha.. i lazy to post photos...

den after that they left.. and we went on wif our fun and mahjong... zzz

well it was like 3++am when i fell asleep.. leavin the others to their games...

it was a suprise to see when i woke up the next morning haha... ;)

2007-06-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

bbq

more bbq...

eerie zanny

mahjong!

some1 sae i look like a gal in dis photo.. -_- i think i look dumb compared to xr..

and thats me! all thanks to lianny and her 'wonderful camera skills'..

2007-06-20T12:10:00.000+08:00

Day !:
12:00- time unknown
Met up with jy2 and yuker at my house to pick up some stuff...
Then when we were gonna set off to pasir ris to meet up with the rest, realised that jy2 forgot to bring the receipt for the chalet, -_- wth... den took a taxi down to his house den to pasir ris White Sands. Met up wif xr, jenny and yuet yong. correct? ok nvm.. haha... three of dem went to the chalet first to book in... left yk, jy2 an d me at the bus stop to wait for the 2 geraldines.
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at around 4++ den we set off to the chalet..
haha, aft reaching den reaLise that the chalet is not wat i expected it to be.. but who cares.. got about doing up the lemon tea syrup.. lol..
den onto the food... the variety was alot, thx to xr's father and herself fer getting the best bargain..

the bbq.. was much fun but on the health problem.. i rather not comment on it.. jus noe that my life was shorten by alot.. around ten yrs>?
but the food was delicious.. haha.. den it was a night of mahjong and half-awake trances.. i din get to slp that night.. ended going home to catch a wink of slp..

-end of first day-

2007-06-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

it's the last week of the term... but it's a super loooooo-o-o-ng week.. everyday i'll be ending at either 5 or 6.. plus 3 upcomin quizzes.. omg... *pulls face*..
so i'll hab some extra sleepless nights... haha...
anyway aft this week.. will be looking forward to some upcoming events in the short 2-weeks-term-break.. haha..

been lookin back and i realised i was really immature in the past.. haha.. not denying that i am still an immature but.....lesser.. i may have been harsh towards some ppl.. may have been the always-correct-ignorant-guy..may have been the childish-immature-guy...
for that, i apologise for any inconvenience caused... (sounds like those roadside works)and i'll try my utmost best to change everything that's imperfect to be a better person.. thanks for pointing out those mistakes in me..

2007-05-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

YO! it's been quite awhile since i last blog. been really lazy to come to blogger wif all the assignments, reports, projects to be completed. and well time to relax.

this week, is our E-learning week, meaning that we do not need to go back school for lessons. but seriously, i prefer schooling than this e-learning week.. the workload tripled. every subject has at least 1 assignment. at least as in there are more than 1 assignment for most of the subjects. crap. haha, i ended up sleeping at 3 almost every night. dark circles (0).(0)

2007-05-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian..
life in poly can be fun
but how fun can school get??
i hab jus finished my TBCM(Technical Business Communication Management) homework, in short english.
i spent like 1 hour evaluating pictures on important figures on the way they stand, gestures, postures, their environment, who appears to be more powerful and other sign languages.
then i spent another 1 hour summarising and commenting on wat 5 questions, given by my teacher.
yea, you bet it was hell lotsa fun..looking at pictures.. -_-

on to maths den.........

2007-05-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

Vision blurred.
Hearing deproved.
Taste becomes bland.
Sleepless nights.
Jokes senseless.
Memories faded.
Laughter lessened.
Life meaningless.

Am i getting old?

2007-04-28T02:16:00.000+08:00

after a lo0ng and tiring day at school and at squash, i can now sit back infront of my laptop and seriously do some gaming w/o interference frm homework, tutorial or watsoever.
seriously, poly life ain't no difference frm sec sch life other than the syllabus, the dressing and the PPL. funny, how ppl are friendlier at poly than in secondary school. more conversations were ensued, laughters were often heard, the 'tsk' sound frm the lecturer. well, got to get use to it, THIS life after all, will be wat i might be going thru for the nxt 3 yrs.
anyway, after squash practice, went for dinner wif nicole and jy2.. germaine left us at outram station so as to made her way home :(, while jy2 was continuing his complains on gastric pains where he had only a biscuit for the entire day, lol.
aft the rather hearty dinner to fill the stomachs we head back home where i could finally on my com and come online.

o ya suminasai!

2007-04-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

lao sai is less dense than water -_-
some1 told me this.. but i cant rmb who..

The Fray- How to save a life

and by the way.. the video isnt the real music video.. a random pick-up as u can see...

2007-04-22T02:12:00.000+08:00

day after day after day.. life still goes on eh...
come to think of it... things hab changed quite a few bits as we as tertiary students progress further into the reality world...
the 'seeing' and meeting of the few good old frens told me this.. cos many hab changed..changed according to their circumstances... but to be better or worse..im not to judge......

this message is to those whom i think of as frens.. change wat u can to look better but not change wat u cant to be better.. chim hor... haha~

well, not much to blog about... cos poly life ain't started in full force yet haha... so i wish u guys all the best in the following journey... and dun forget to kip in touch wif those whom u cherish!

Cheers!

2007-04-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

well.. the day started when my class ended at around 3++... met up with the peeps and waited fer a few moments fer the others to arrive before setting off for MJR anniversary.. haha~ we went back nt fer the sake of the performance but to catch up wif the few old frens that had been 'missing' these past few weeks/months...
the evening was then spent in idling in the canteen chit-chatting and eating..

went over to block 20 for a basketball session.. wanted to go out wif jenny, jy2, geraldine teo all those.. but ended up nt going.. i think the fault was mostly mine cos i was too in-to the game where i forgotten that they were still waiting underneath the void deck... when i finally realized, it was like 40 mins later.. by then every1 had went home...
guilt-stricken... sigh...
Sorry to all those whom waited, really sorry =(

2007-04-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

first two days of school. wasn't as bad as it appeared to be.. but why am i alwaes the unlucky one...............

lecturer at holiday... lecturer at course... dun nid attend lecture... let off early... THOSE didn't happen to be my lecturers.. but other ppl's lecturers instead... T_T

and guess wat.. my timetable also turns out to be the 1 that's more hectic than the rest like yuker, jy2 and kris... OMG....
but... BUT.. nxt semester.. heh heh... their tym to suffer... =)

only the weakest will survive!

2007-04-14T02:36:00.000+08:00

in the wee hours of a Saturday morning, im back to blogging.. haha.. the start of school and end of our loooooooooooong holidays is slowly comin to a start/halt.

to think that i still have to go back school again.
to think that i hab to make new frens again.
to think that i hab to complete homework, or in this case tutorials again.

to think that it's a new life out there really perks me up..NOT

depressing isnt it.. haha.. all that i hope fer the life in Sp is simple yet exciting.. =)

olay lay lay.. ola la la...

2007-04-13T11:40:00.000+08:00

ytd was the flag day for the President's Challenge.
returned home very tired but ended up sleeping at 3++.

the day started at 730. den i found out.. that no attendance taking is needed, so decided to called down everybody to walk 2gether.. haha.. kris was the first to arrive at toa payoh.. den we hab to wait a full 45mins fer yan guang and jy2 to arrive... wth..
we were supposed to catch the morning crowd, where every1 is rushing for work.. but due to lateness of some ppl.. lol.. we hab to deal wif the lesser crowd.. the donations coming in frm the crowd at toa payoh was generally fine and generous.. den due to the 'rule' in the paper, it states that we hab to take the initiative to go elsewhere if funds are running low.. den (i shall nt name who) someone asked us to go dhoby gaut.. when we arrived we realised dat instead of a full crowd.. it was like totally empty.. and the place was littered wif SP students asking fer donations.. so literally there was no chance fer us to compete at all..

basically... aft that dhoby gaut incident.. we almost.. ALMOST traveled around the whole of S'pore.. haha.. den ended up in MJR in the end.. met most of our teachers.. 'begged' fer donations.. den set off back to SP.. haha...

the counting of the funds was quite fast.. i collected $15.45.. haha.. pathetic right.... some1 in my class collected onli $4.60... his excuse the ppl see his face bui song.. lol..

aft the flag day, ended up at Grand Cathay wif yuker, junyong etc. etc.. nt fer movie.. but fer the LAN.. it was lame...
that's basically the crap day la.. nth much thats interesting... =)

2007-04-08T02:06:00.000+08:00

mathematics kills =)

2007-04-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

i mean wat the hell is wrong with my laptop anyway... it's newly bought and i hadn't done anything to it.. but there's something wrong wif the headphones plug... somehow.. i cant connect any headphones to my laptop anymore.. the sound still comes out from the speakers instead... damn..

2007-04-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

haha~ just received my notebook todae at SP. i at first tot onli need to collect, den mus go thru that pre-configuration thingy which ate up 2++hrs of my tym... it was still quite crowded even though the main roadshow is over.. haha~ Fujitsu Liefbook S7110(wadeva the no.) is quite compact, cos comparing to the other three models this is small and much lighter..I bet that the system isnt much inferior to those 'high-end' laptops too...

on to play wif my new gadget.... toodles..

2007-04-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

i remembered once not long ago when we were complaining on how boring the long holidays are after our o levels. but soon. hmm. in almost a week's time we hab to go back to educate ourselves again. time really flies when u dun wan it to. haha~

Face Down- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

2007-03-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to only those who have visited Nicole Yap's blog.

The following post posted on Nicole's blog on Wednesday, March 28 2:57PM is untrue.
She was not sober at the time when she told me about what she intended to blog on her blog the next day. So i beseech all who have or are going to visit her blog to ignore all comments written about me a.k.a liwei, Sebastian a.k.a mummy and Junyong a.k.a alien.
Thank you for your kind attention and have a nice day =)

P.S. on effect only from March 28 10:36 till March 29 10:36

2007-03-25T12:58:00.000+08:00

2007-03-22T12:41:00.000+08:00

went through those irritrating enrolment form posted by SP.. went through the long 'awaited' medical checkup... now.. i still hab to take a trip down SP to make the student card.... boring stuff... these few days went down with high fever again... due to the throat inflammation which i had for many weeks ago but was aggravated further..zzz.... even drinking water makes my throat sting with pain.... ouch.

2007-03-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

Posting results: Singapore Polytechnic - Infocomm Security Management.. Layman terms.. it's all about hacking, internet security etc.etc..

Faster faster.. Though i dun wish to go back school so early but with my parents nagging at me everyday, it makes me feel irritated..

But abit true.. I've been slacking for these past few months doing nothing but stare at the computer screen.. Lol..
As i said. everything i do is boring.. So nothing much to post about.. Haha~

2007-02-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

dunno wat happen to my template sia.. that phantom disappeared...

it's been quite a long time since i blogged... bz wif sch? haha... total crap.. cos it's like takin a vacation, super relax... if it's nt because of the distance i wouldn't mind stayin in that MI... 07S9 u guys are great =) will miss those days..

anyway.. took back o levels results ytd.... well.... i did better den expected... sad thing was that my chem gt a B3 when i was expecting an A2. L1B4 gt 12... either going to SP or TP.. chemical engineering.. 1st choice... haven think about wat to fill in for the rest of the 11 choices...

will be back..............

2006-12-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

came bak from taiwan a while ago.. jus dint feel like blogging den.. lol.. taiwan was quite nice except that it could get abit boring when it comes to the shopping part.. heaven for the gals i guess but nt fer the guys.. though.. i bought some clothes at a cheap price- a pair of jeans for $15.. a pair of shirts fer $18.. fashionable.. in my sense its ok.. the weather there can get pretty cold.. especially around the mountain area..

ok off the topic on taiwan.. x'mas comin!! the festive season i've been waiting for.. firstly.. is the presents received and second represents that my birthday is just 5 days away.. presents pls! =D any1 wan presents frm me?

2006-12-06T16:15:00.000+08:00

going to taiwan tmr..at around 8am..sigh.. dunno y holidays dun gib me excitement wan leh... prefer to stay at home.. haha... AND I BOUGHT A NEW PHONE NOT TOO LONG AGO.. WAHAHA.. sony ericsson.. W700i.. dunno leh sounds like an old model.. but the mp3 quality is really superb..

going to work aain on the 12th.. adminstrative work at AIG company.. ( isn't that man utd the sponsor?) planning to leave at the 20th.. so as to enjoy the remaning of my hols before entering into MI fer the 1st three mnths..

Humans..always being used w/o noticing..

2006-11-29T11:48:00.000+08:00

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2006-11-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

my dark circles are getting more obvious.................................
late nights up doing nothin but just tossing & turning.. even during sleep time i also feel sian... wth..
jus 2 days ago.. i WAS on a job.. in a printing company.. now i had quitted.. first day and cannot tahan liao.. maybe im weak lar.. but 12 hrs non-stop carrying tons and tons of paper is like.. hell? first time exposure too.. but i gt my 1st day wage =D so good...
FOUND another job.. this time intro by my uncle.. a day $100++
Job?----> cleaning up houses after it's being renovated.. nt bad actually.. my uncle told me there are some 'skills' in which u hab to learn.. well i'll take 1 step at a tym den...

btw..the celebrity look-alike? it was so damn coincidental that i look like ashley tisdale... *.*

2006-11-18T13:01:00.000+08:00

o levels are over!!!! and is going to be damn friggin sian..
yeah we are free.. but wat are we going to do? i dun plan on sitting around the com the whole day.. and i dun plan to follow a normal routine day too.. i need EXCITEMENT.. arghhhhh.... siannnn... anyway... toking bout o levels.. i dun really hab much hope on my humans.... history paper was like Oh My God.. wat the hell is this asking for? i can guarantee you.. 100% sure flung... like wat YuKer say.. nt the ending i hab in my mind..for all those hu hab an upcomin mcq- go for it.. last 1 and u're free.. and u'll be jus like me.. no swt..

2006-10-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

we'll miss here.....
haha!
4F boys.. missing some though...........
act despo. dun get the pic? look at alex
act cute
act dao
haha latecomer scavenging for food

crap... u're supposed to eat this once u lost at the game of
终ji密码
finishing leftovers =D
food galore
talk to the hand
perf.couple
cool? no?

2006-10-01T19:11:00.000+08:00

curiouser and curiouser

2006-09-25T18:03:00.000+08:00

prelims results are back... i did nt make it to first three months... oh well, i was aiming to go poly anyway..

jus awhile back.. when some1 told me that i was a total lameass i took some tym to think.. yeah.. i do crack some seriously lame jokes that brought a 'blizzard' blowing.. so sry if u all felt totally 'cold'.. haha//
i again took some time to think.. think about wat i have done wif my life... well, well. it was unfruitful.. my schedule fer a normal routine weekend will be like this >>> eat, sleep, stare at the com/tv and to the toilet.. mayb i will have to tweak some places abit.. y not sleep, eat, to the toilet and staring at the com/tv? doest it look better?

Song recommended fer the week: if u like rock try searching fer Breaking Benjamin - The Diary of Jane.. i giv it 4/5 stars.

2006-09-11T09:21:00.000+08:00

Woah.... I'm on a school day but i dun hav to go to school.. Cool man.. the others hab to go back bcos of chinese prelims paper.. gd luk to ya all =D im gonna slack here.. lol.. nah.. time to buck up abit.. a teeny weeny bit counts too cos i had been really really unproductive this whole week and guess wat.. my exams start tmr!!! song bo.. i havent really started serious studies at all..haha.. oh well.. let's see how it goes.. one step at a time..

2006-09-04T14:43:00.000+08:00

Im sick. Sick. Sick. Im bored. Bored.Bored. It was jus ytd when my temp gt up to 38.9 degress, wow and my chest got real tight. very hard to breathe.I went to see the doctor. very sui bian wan leh. on the torch havent even see a glance into my throat he told me it was a serious case. -.-"then prescribed me 2 packets of pills-$24.. -.-" but todae im fine enough to come on9 to blog =) *doesnt seem to be THAt serious after all.
Anyway dis past few months wasnt very much to sastisfaction. it was jus study study study. man.. im under stress here. sigh..sigh...sigh... I'll try to post more often.

I'll Be Back

do not panik!!!

2006-06-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

okok.. tomorrow..is the day where every1 returns to school..guess wat? i bet there's alot of ppl that haven't finish their homework!! am i right? i am one of them too..haha..

awww..i'll be missing the match of portugal and holland today..plus tomorrow i can't wake up late..plus tomorrow must go school..plus tomorrow i can't use the com anymore..plus... damn.. i hate mondays.. but nevermind a new start will help me pull up my socks and work hard for the 'O's..

i guess..................

wat

2006-05-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

exams coming liao.. and wat am i doing? blogging..haha~ heck la...study until so stress.. sleep until so stress do everything also stress...man dis is stupid
my bag is still lost...dun tok bout that now..
Anyway..ytd..got that stupid listening compre thingy..
dunno wat they talking..i just tikam-tikam the answer..besides the question all so logical..dun need hear also can answer..aiya........................
hmmm hope my chem can get B4 la...i onli finished revising mole concept,metals,and ionic compund.. still left.. umm..around 18++chaps?
anyone pls tell me... am i dead or dead.....

walaueh

2006-05-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

damn it...go grandlink play lan put my bag beside me also will get stolen...DAMN THAT GUY/GAL WHO TOOK IT....all my chem notes all gone T.T how to study... shit man.. sec3-sec4.. my I.C. also..go report.. the police asked me to wait 2 weeks before going to that umm..that building in Lavendar where u make passports to report lost la..DAMN STUPID LOR... imagine that guy take my I.C. go borrow money from loan sharks...then imagine two months later i see a pig head in front of my door with words in red " O $ P $ ".. Illiteracy rocks man... mayb im too imaginative haha~ tmr got that chinese mid-yr exam... still got that listening compre.. stupid sia..wadeva... must dig ears before going in..........

bleh bleh bleh

2006-04-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

man...stress...cough/flu coming up..dun wanna miss any lessons..trying to push my chem..well..unsuccessful..procrastination..AND LOOK AT THE LIST MR GUI GAVE US FOR OUR MYE.. ohmygod.. forget it..im bound to get F9 for physics anywae..so might as well giv my best shot for chem..classes are getting a bit boring now & then.. no excitement.. must be exams blues.. 1 more week to MYE.. im dead.. so many things.. so little time..ARRRRRRRRRRRR.

reviving

2006-04-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

trying as hard as i might.. it was hard to revive this long dead blog but hey.. i managed to do it.. but i dun think any1 comes anymore.. please leave a note on the tagboard..to show..

Hi?

2005-09-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

well... looking back on the last few posts i put.. i realized...OMG... it was MAY since i last blogged.. well... sorry for 'abandoning' my blog.. IM back.. well.. i'll continue my stories...but somehow i had ran out of juice... argh... my holidays suck... is either the com or my studies...hey..nothing different from the normal days i used to lead... i missed passing up three files... 3 0s ... haiz... well... buck up for end-of-year i guess... time realli pass damn fast...

Dogs

2005-05-22T16:40:00.000+08:00

Once a friend, now a friend, always a friend.

I had once an apartment full of joy and of barks. My 5-year old Labrador, Razor, whom has never failed to make me happy when I am down, whom has filled me with energy whenever I arrived home weary from the paperwork. But now, this house is seemingly so empty without his presence. His death two weeks ago has brought me a fresh wave of grieve when I think about that incident that had happened in a remote area of the park...

Like always, I trudged down the pathway leading to my apartment with heavy footsteps. It was again another tiring day at work. I placed the key into the lock and turned, without any warning I was brought down by hundred and twenty pounds of fur. 'Stop it, Razor!' I cried as I was 'cleaned' by an onslaught of his slobber (saliva). I push the dog away and stood up. As I look at his face, the tiring day that has happened just an hour ago has dissipated into the air. Oh well, since it has just past evening, I took out the dog lease and tied onto his collar.

Entering the park I breathe in the cold evening air and began my stroll. All was well, when suddenly Razor went totally crazy. It looked into a direction where there was no one and started to bark agitatedly as if something at that direction has provoked him. Staring in the direction, there was nothing there but an endless darkness looming ahead. Going berserk he gnashed his teeth and pulled away from my grasp and tore into the darkness. As any normal homo sapiens will do I went after him.

It was getting dark but still Razor could not be found. Anxiously I called out he's name. There was a sudden whimpering to my right. I turned and walked towards the sound. Suddenly, my surrounding temperature dropped and someone or something whispered into my ear. I snapped back and cried out as I looked directly into a being which is taller than me by a head with red fiery eyes. I stumbled back as it quickly advanced towards me. As I shielded my face in defense, a sudden bark made me look up. It was Razor! Growling to the being, he pounced on it and started to bite furiously. Roaring in pain, the being took out what seemed like a hand and grabbed onto the dog's back and threw it to the ground. Although wounded, he continued to attack the being.

The battle continued on until the being grabbed the dog by the leg and swung it into a tree. With that, the being disappeared into thin air, as it disappeared, the darkness that had loomed over the park retreated and a starlit sky lit up the park. Stunned momentarily, I regained my senses and rushed towards my savior. Breathing labored it licked me on my cheek and gave a soft whimper. As I hugged him closer, I could feel his body slowly turning cold. The last thing I knew about him was that he pass onto the other world in my hands. A friend that I have known for five years has died and I cried out in agony. Holding on his limp body I took him to a crematorium and had him buried with grace.

Till now, as I stared at his pictures I never wanted to keep another dog...in loyalty towards him. Till now, I still visit his tablet. Till now I treated him as a human. What he had done saved my life. Very little humans would do that and that made him a hero. Dogs, man's best friend, now and always will be true.

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2005-05-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

today got back 6/7 of my MYE results .. wa seh ... only got 2 pass! wa ... can cry man ... so many fail.. btw, im sorry about the delay in the stories.. been busy with my exam and now i think im suffering from depression ....... i'll return to my stories in another week.. sorry sorry..

Astray

2005-05-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

Would you take the chance in changing what you did wrong?

Sometimes, we regret what we do or what we had done, because mainly they hurt the people around us. For example friends, families and so on. Have you ever wanted to turn back time and take back what you said? Or would you want to let your mistakes pass and live with an eternity of guilt? Well, I would definitely choose the first one, but it's almost impossible to turn back time. But an experience tells me that I am wrong, that there is such a thing as a time warp, a time machine. An experience that tells me it's never too late to realize your mistakes. Never to commit the mistakes again allowing me to learn, to find myself, as a new person.

I slammed the bathroom door. How could they be so unreasonable? Exams are over, my results were good. Then why won't they allow me to enjoy during this holiday period? I just want to have some time with my friends and all they can tell me is just to study, study and study all day. Sickening bunch of parents. As I wash off the remnant of the last cry I made out of anger, I sat on the floor refusing to beckon my parent's calls. Though their calls became frantic, I still stayed emotionless and stubbornly refusing to come out of the bathroom. I turned and looked at my own reflection. Even though I felt sorry for them, the anger that has cooped up in me for months overcame that small percentage of pity I hold for them. After what seems like an hour or so, I heard the house door slammed. My parents were out and now, I can leave my wet 'sanctuary'.

Right before I open the bathroom door, I suddenly felt nauseous like as if the room was spinning itself. I sat down on the floor once again, abruptly. I tried to regain my consciousness as fast as I could: to find out what has gone wrong. When things start to take shape and the dizziness stopped, I opened the door and stepped out. Everything looks the same. But this is when everything went from normal to abnormal.

I heard the shouts of a voice of someone I so often hear. As I cautiously peeked out into the living room, I was surprised to see 'myself' on the spot arguing with my parents. Then I realized that somehow, I have gone back to the time where it all started out in the first place. This was the replay. I was suddenly filled with guilt and remorse as I see myself shouting at my parents. From their eyes, I could see that they were shocked but yet sad from the sudden outburst of their flesh and blood. As I saw 'myself' stomping into the bathroom door, I followed him or in this case, me in. Once again I saw myself weeping bitterly because of the anger and frustration of my parents. As 'I' slumped against the wall, I could vividly see the shape of hatred itself on the face. I had found out that today, this outburst was a merely a misunderstanding between the older and younger generation. As I stepped closer, I whispered into 'my' ears, 'Feel sorry for yourself and your parents. What you did just now was just not utterly correct. Take it from here. You can change what's wrong to right. Do not go astray.' As I said that, 'I' stood up and opened the door and there at the bathroom door was my parents trying frantically to call me out. As I see 'myself' apologizing to my parents, I was swept by the nauseous feeling and found myself in the bathroom again.

As I hear the frantic calls of apology replayed once again, I told myself: I did make a difference today. Forgive and forget. I have the chance to change, so why not? As I inched closer towards the door, I grabbed the handle and opened the door, knowing exactly what was going to happen.

Freedom

2005-05-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

Like a bird being caged, everyone wants to be free.

Breathing in the fresh air, I found that I felt thoroughly relaxed after that run in the park that evening. I stopped by a bench and sat down admiring the park's night view. It was good to know that such serene places still exist. My attention was suddenly drawn to an old man letting go a caged bird. As I watch with envy the bird opens its wings and flapped away. Suddenly interested, I stood up and walked towards the old man and asked in dialect, 'May I know why did you let go of your bird?' Looking at me he smiled and laughed gently, 'We are their friends, so why then must we make them our pets and deprive them of the freedom they deserve?' saying that, he slowly walked away. Pondering on what he said, would the bird think that way?

As I continue on my walk on the pavement in the park I paid particular attention to the bird that old man has released. It was just like other birds except for the missing right leg. As I look on carefully I noticed that it's feathers some sort of glow. As if that bird was luminous and has an aura around it. As I continued following it in the evening light, it seems to notice me. As it hopped onto different branches it gave me a look of curiosity a look that made me feel it was part of or once a human.

Suddenly it missed a step on the branches and fell down. I ran to its aid and found it lying there motionless. Is it dead yet? As I walked closer I peered down and saw its eyes wide open and tears seem to roll down it's lost -radiance face. I picked it up cautiously and brought it home to cure it before letting it go again. Before flying away, the bird gave me a nod that gave me a sense of satisfaction, when it flew away, I swear there was a trail of golden dust following in its wake. That night my dream was all so strange.

I opened my eyes and peered out of my branch. It was some time before dawn but I decided to arise early. 'Early birds get the worm.' As I spread my wings and took flight I enjoyed the feeling of flying freely the wind that rustled through my wings, the bird's eye view and so many more. Landing on the grass below, I started pecking at the ground. Soon I got my first worm of the day. Feeling satisfied of my meal I flew off in search of a resting place for the day. I do not know how long I slept but I was woken up by a sudden loud crowing of the crow. I peered through my sleepy eyes and was shocked to see a bunch of crows standing right in front of me. Once I open my eyes, they started to peck me, mobbing me as I was chased away from the tree believing that was their territory. Injured by the savage pecks I landed soundlessly on the ground. As I lay helplessly on the ground feeling the hot sun beating upon me, I tried to get up and fly away to somewhere safe, but alas I could not. All of a sudden the sun that shone upon me was shaded by big figure. I stare up and looked directly into the hunter's gun barrel. As I closed my eyes, I knew my life has ended here. Bang!

I stood up. That dream felt so real, I could even felt the pain done by the crows. But I guess dreams are dreams. I stared on my bed where it was wet and found out that I was sweating profusely. I decided to go to the bathroom and clean up myself. As I stood up, I felt strangely weak on my left arm. Walking hurriedly to the bathroom, I switched on and was shocked to find out that my arm was terribly scratched by claws of an animal. I gasped and realized. Was that actually a dream? Have I transformed into a bird? Or. Was I that bird?

Angel

2005-05-03T19:27:00.000+08:00

'Spread your wings and fly. You will never know how high you can reach.'

Everything around me is a blur. I open my eyes and blinked. My surroundings suddenly cleared and materialized in front of me. I looked around me. Everything is so blue. I could see clouds, trees and birds. I looked at the pair of wings behind me. Is this a dream? I touched it; it felt real, the soft and smooth textures of wings. Like those of a birds. I strained my newly formed wings and turned, looking down. It was quite a view up here, for miles I can see clearer than before. But yet that building right under my feet attracted my attention. Squinting in the bright afternoon sunlight I tried to make up the name of that building. Faint words formed on the sign board but all I could only see is the word hospital. Something is amiss. I kept myself from floating away and flapped down to Earth ignoring the awkward feeling.

I landed soundlessly on the concrete floor on bare feet. It felt cold even in this weather. Something is really amiss. I pushed open the door and strangely enough my hand could actually go through it! I shrugged off that awkward feeling that somehow I was a ghost and walked into the hospital. Ward 3, Bed 21. Somehow I knew my way. This place also looked familiar and I was being led to my 'destination' by an invisible guide. Deja vu. No matter how hard I tread my feet the nurses and doctors treated as if there was no one there at all. Finally, reaching my destination, I crept towards the couple crowding over a bed and peered over their shoulders.

Wait a minute that face look familiar! I suddenly can't remember who that was and stared at the hospital mirror and realized the truth. I ...was...looking...at...myself! Was I dead? As if the words hold a magical meaning, I was suddenly struck by a terrible headache. 'I am sorry sir... madam...' Can't remove myself from the pain! 'Your son has contracted cancer and may not be able to live up till next year...' Now I remembered. A terrible truth daunted on me. I was dead due to cancer. These couple was my parents. Are they still grieving? Or had they stop? I walked in front of the bed and looked at their faces. My mother was definitely still crying. Her sore-eyes were on the extent of bursting because of the lack of tears. While my father continued to look sadly at my limp body, trying as hard as he can to hold back his tears while applying pressure on my mother's shoulders to stop her from crying anymore. A sudden remorse filled me. Have I left too early? I wanted to comfort them but I knew I would go through them. But, nevertheless, I tried one last time. I placed both of my hands on their shoulders and told them: I am good. Grieve for me no more. It makes me sad to see you both like this. I will be good. This time it did really work. They look at each other and looked at my direction. I was stunned. Could they see me? No, I guess not. I am a 'ghost'. But they heard my words. Hugging each other, no tears drop anymore and I hope that none will drop during my absence. I smiled and was pulled back into a white vortex.

Blinded momentarily, I found myself once again floating. But now instead in mid-air, I was going upwards. Knowing what it meant, knowing that I have done my task here, I let go of all my worldly possessions as well as connections and followed the beam of light guiding me through the clouds together with other angels.

Cats

2005-05-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

Promising is one thing. Betraying is another.

Something at somewhere or someone was staring at me. I have that feeling that I was being watched but I have no idea who. I looked in all directions. Left, right up, down. There is no one to be seen. This place is also strangely empty. Meow. That call was definitely a cat's. Echoing down the empty hallway I looked in the direction where it came from. Sure enough, there was a cat. A cat with black fur and sparkling emerald green eyes; by looking at it, it makes my skin creep. But on the contrary it looked cute too. There was something alluring in that pair of eyes. But looks could be deceiving. I look at it intently. What could a perfectly harmless and innocent cat do to you? As I walked towards cautiously towards it, it also never left its eyes off me. Why those look on your face? It is making me uncomfortable. Wait a minute, that voice. Where did it come from? There were no one else in this hallway except for me and the cat. It definitely was not me. I did not even open my mouth. Could it be? No, impossible. Cats do not talk. What makes you think so? Again that voice. Stammering I thought for a moment whether have I actually lost my sanity in talking to a cat, 'Can...you actually...TALK?'

Yes and perhaps no. I do not actually talk like you humans but I talk through telepathy. Eerie yet somehow incredible. Not really. Being trapped in a cat's body for so long is not as incredible as it seems. Showing me its best way in expressing a frown, to me, it looked more like it was laughing, as you know cat's faces have fewer muscles then we have. Hey! I was once a human to. You can actually hear my thoughts? Yes. How did u turn into a cat? Witchcraft? Sorcery? Or am I just plain hallucinating? No you are not. This is real. I am real. We are in a reality world. I need your help in breaking this spell. Can you do it? Will you help? Why me? Maybe fate has decreed that you will help me. Now then, will you be so kind as to follow me. Following it down the hallway I pushed open a door that I think was never there and let the cat through. I was surprised that the door actually led to a main street. As there were no cars I dashed across it alongside the cat.

All of a sudden, I was banged by an incoming van. Where did it come from? There were no cars on the street! Due to the impact, I felt my bones breaking one by one from my right-side and was flung into mid-air. Landing sharply on the concrete floor, I felt weightless. I winced as I felt excruciating pain settled in. Yes my spell is broken! What do you mean? No one agreed to help me when I say that they must die in order for the spell to be broken. You tricked me! No, you volunteered. With that it ran off.

I lay on my back, breathing labored. Even trying to move my hand felt tiring. As I heard the ambulance sirens blaring I knew it was too late. Every pain that hammered through me weakened my defenses even more till my heart stopped pumping in renewed oxygen. With my brain’s electricity deteriorating rapidly, I closed my five senses to my surrounding and gave out. But before that, I told myself one last thing: Looks are deceiving. I would ... never...believe in cats ever again.

2005-04-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday sports day .. dint noe the results of the house winners could some1 pls tell me .. the cca run until pek cek sia lol .. but wat is over is over cant do anything about it .. btw.. after this blog .. i decide to post my own short stories .. 3 days 1 story .. so pls support me .. arigato !! ^^

2005-04-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

todae.. last day of the week... time passes so damn fast... soon gonna hab mid-year exam liao.. sigh... todae the CCA onli less den 15mins den Mr chua sae can go liao... go home also so do nothing... go home on comp. no one on9 also..lol ... trying toadapt to my new classroom environment... bu xi guan... abit suk too la... nowadays ... find that every1's givin me the cold shoulder .. wat hab i done now ?

2005-03-31T18:40:00.000+08:00

hm...nothing interesting todae though... if there's anything i wanna sae is..
my mouth works faster den my brain... so if i offended any1 wib wat i sae, im realli sorry... dint think bout wat i was going to sae.. sorrie... Anyway... todae P.E. ran the 2.4 km in skool compound made my leg ache...nearly faint on the spot too .. lol .. my body too weak ler la.. cant withstand... findin thursdae more fun than the others... wonder what has make me feel dat way...

2005-03-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

sorry HOR.. long time never blog anymore.... now 1st time use my new comp. to blog... heh heh... nth much to sae la... changed seat... now seating nxt to yee pei... disaster sia... i get 'tortured' lol... but feel more relaxed, more cooling at there...

2005-03-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

todae the CIP damn long but very fun .... was able to throw things around until i nearly sprained my back but nevertheless it was a once-in-a-lifetime chance .. haha ... damn fun ... but go home so tired and nauseous... sigh .. todae the Maths test was quite easy .. and i hope i PASS ... sigh ... finally got my 1st tagboard placed up .. thanks to wee loon ... didnt noe wat to do at 1st ... den at 11.30 ... watch the Jap. Anime Kiddy Grad .. onli on wednesday, thursday, friday ... warning:this show contains mature content .. watch it at ur own risk .. that the end i guess .. haha ...

2005-03-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

my A maths result came out ... still fail ... sigh feel like knocking my head against the wall and jus bleed to death ... fail, fail, fail ... from the begining till now .. kept on failing ... wa kaoz ... todae realli very sian la .., our klass got stealing case again .. suspected to be an insider job but dunno who ... wasted a lotta time ... todae .. also no comments la ... sorry fer the song ... could not find the code fer the song mockingbird ... so had to use dis as a substitute .. sorry ...

2005-03-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

sigh... very dissapointed wib my results sia... nv realli go and study ... got a failure fer both physics and 'E' maths .. lucky got a pass fer english ... dun understand why when we write those 'inspirational' compos the teacher tend to gib us lesser marks den those who write simpler.... mus study harder next time ... fer mid year mus get at least a distinction fer 'E' maths ! forward !@!!!!!

2005-02-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

w00t .. 2 more tests den the end liao till mid-year exam ... waaaa time pass so fast .. cannot believe seh .. time pass fast oso no use ... this year the class abit sucky la ... dunno how to explain any1 from other classes willing to swap wib me ? to experience 3F during lesson time ? haisss .. too much trouble liao la ... to the one sitting behind me ... not worth while in waging this 'war' lar .. both parties would neither gain nor lose ... mus always remember to promote world peace *cheese* .. lol ... aiya ... dat time at klass dunno wat to sae ... walls have ears u noe ? anyway ... united or not ... ?2E rul?

2005-02-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

sigh...sian leh .. common tests just started ... finish history and chemistry.. all never study .. zhun bei fail liao .... wa lao ... second class where got good .. S-T-R-E-S-S ar ..... tomorrow social studies.. i was wondering wats the difference beween the two subjects ? anyway ... i now studying while typing... brain memory space start to run out liao must remember so many things .. Lol ...

2005-02-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

i mostly think that humans (including myself) are weak. weak in the sense where the mind cannot hold extreme stress ; the body, where fatigue sets in very easily. we usually and mostly give up on things that we think that cannot be done. there is no sign of perseverance at all. when i sae mostly there will still be a miniority of those with hard-iron-will determination to complete wadeva it's at hand. e.g. thomas edison ? wat gave me the idea of saying this, is because after lookin at the blog of a woman in the last few days of a disease called recalcitrant tumour in the neck. although she has passed away. i would like u all to go have a look at her blog. : http://www.dyingis.blogspot.com/ that it's .

2005-02-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

DUH .... worst day of my life .. i guess .. had a great time at skl though ... sigh ... upon reachign my house door step i got scolded just becos of stepping in the house wib my socks .. later den i realise dat my mom thought that i was still wearing my shoes .. isnt it jus plain lame ? she also dint even try to apologize .. (afraid to lose face i guess) .. i got another scolding from her jus becos she thought that i came on9 to play ... but i was to do my hist. project given by Ms Poh ... she scolded me 2 times w/o any reason ! ok .. the 1st time was my mom getting abit old and her eyesight is deteriorating but the second .. is jus simply she jumping to a conclusion .. On the com = playin games ... dats wat she thought ... does it make sense at all ? Adults are like that .. I dun think we are the one who is childish .. They are ....

2005-02-16T18:08:00.000+08:00

todae .. total defense day .. *singingnationalanthem* lol .. im not so patriotic .. anyway .. same as usual sit there listen to teacher will sleep one .. especially Ms Pan .. sigh .. becoz of 1 file mus stand fer 1 period .. sobsob.. recess time need to eat the ration food dunno gib 3 measly biscuits .. lol den chun zhong kana biscuit crumbs in his pocket by Ken .. den kana the biscuit again by Glenn.. den assembly got dat show on total defense .. dunno wat crap those 3 ppl talkin .. anyway... it was quite lame too .. uh huh .. come home straight do my blog liao .. sian 1/2 ..

2005-02-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

heyo guys .. jus got dis new blog skin today while at CCA .. teacher outta words today so can't realli ask for much .. found dat dis blog skin quite cool and downloaded it .. especially when i am quite a fan for Anime shows .. like dis 'Hellsing' .. haha .. every skl day is the same three words to describe ' sian,sian,sian ' so not much to talk about ... sorri about the tagboard cant do anything about dat in dat area .. so .. i guess dat's all fer todae .... (sian hor)